Last week my kids and I went on a load with my husband Hector to Washington State where I got to see some of my family who mean a lot to me. While I was there I received a message quite clear to me. We drove by a huge lottery sign in Oregon which read 330 million!! I immediately thought about what "I" would do with that much money. The first thought was CHURCH!! Being that we just had some pretty, um, tense elections, regarding finances. I thought the first thing I would do with the money would be pay off all the churches and buy all the necessary things we need and then some, maybe buses, gyms, redo the whole church in San Benito and redo the auditoro!! But then I thought...wow, THAT WOULD BE WAY TOO EASY! Then the message came...
Can't you see what I am doing?! This is just a trial you MUST overcome to get from point "A" to point "B". You need to go through this to learn. And yet you have not. You have decided to try to move forward on your own two feet, rather than let Me be the one to guide you along the way. And then you "think" you are in My Will.
Can't we see that this is what life is all about. Trials come to our life and we need to get through them "with the help of God". They come to help us learn how we can rely on God and how with Him we can get through. He wants to see what we do with what comes our way, do we stray or do we stop and let Him take the wheel. Why do we feel that we can do this on our own? Yes, we say from the mouth out, sure I asked God to help me, but do we? Do we really get on our knees and plead for our church, family, health or whatever we need. Sometimes that's all He really wants, for us to truly seek Him. I think everything would just fall in place, the money would just come, problems within the family would just fade and make us stonger, we would heal in an instant...but NO we just dig, and dig and dig and the hole gets soo big, we don't know how it happened or if we can get out of it...till we sit down on our behinds and just think, WOW, Lord you are the ONLY way out! You are the only one who understands me, the only one who can resolve this! And when we do...His arms just open up and He'll say, "here I am my child, I've been waiting for you to come to me, I love you and will never leave you."
I just feel sad that many people don't see it that way, they choose to take things in their own hands and don't care who they hurt a long the way, they have things interfering with their Spirit and choose to ignore it and try to fix it by moving away. Um, sorry, but you need to fix it, not run away from it! God has been so good to me, he has brought be through some really tough things and I guess sometimes you have to go through things to learn and to GROW! His Spirit is the best thing that has happened to me...and saddening Him is the worse thing ever. I don't want to do anything to sadden His Spirit in me. I wish we all thought that way. But I guess that's life...you live and then you learn. Hopefully we all learn before it's too late.
Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in the Spirit and in truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks. God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in the Spirit and in truth.
John 4:23,24
“Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.” - Matthew 6:19-21
